First, I was excited and was estatic to finally go out and just be out from work. Did not feel that actually. I miss working. There are some bad effects to people who are working too hard and then suddenly take this week long break and then one moment away from everything felt like empty. I don’t regret leaving my online life for a while or my hectic schedule behind for some leisure but I just can’t accept the fact that I am wasting time. Wasting in a sense that while I relax, I let these precious minutes of earning to a precious minutes of wastin opportunity.
Like I said, I don’t regret it but it just made me think again. Am I doing this right or not?
I don’t understand being human. I want this and that but when I finally get it, I changed my mind. But what the heck I’m on it now might as well maximize my time.
I miss tapping the keyboard. I miss listening to audio files that I’m editing. I miss the comments and feedbacks from people.
Macau is nice and it’s a small city. I don’t see a real house in here but funny thing is, the only thing I forgot to bring is my camera. Will find a camera tomorrow and we’ll see. 
@Devyl love you and miss you momma… talk to you soon
Crap Excuses
I am born and raised in the Philippines. I know how it is hard to live your life if you are coming from an average family where your parents have to work double time to get you into college. And now I am working, I make it sure that working at my very best irregardless of the pain or sleepless nights.
You come to me for work and yet you have so many crappy reasons as to what kind of work I am giving you. Shut the hell up! You didn’t even get to practice your profession and you don’t have anything that proves you are successful at your so-called profession and here you are backstabbing me because I gave you the worst job ever. You’re not even grateful that I introduced you to transcriptions. What is wrong with you people? You don’t get to anywhere in life because you’ve never let learnings or new projects teach you but instead of learning how to do it properly your mind was somewhere mumbling at how stupid and how tiring it is. Fuck you! I work my asses to get me to where I am and I value that hardwork now if you don’t then quit. I don’t care at all!
I don’t need a bitch and a brat in my team.
Designs
Thank you for the Blessings
I can’t believe things are going smoothly and keeping me busy. I want to have them all but I can’t simply do them all at once or by my own. I am thankful though life has been great and although I know, this won’t last long.
Thanking God for all of this. Iam just so happy right now. I can’t explain it. I don’t know how to describe it but it makes me breathless. I just can’t believe I am having this moment.
Delivering Deliverables
It is quite disappointing when you demand things to be on time and yet you don’t even follow what you have just instructed. Unprofessional and yet still demanding.
I do not understand why some pretend to be professional and could not even stand with her very decision, that she had come to that decision only because she got her information from someone else. It is true that decisions must have come from somebody’s hearsay’s or somebody’s recommendation but to the extent of discharging yourself from the responsibility of the decision is not FAIR. BIG FAIL! Screw your leadership.
What is so hard with saying goodbye? As if there will be more after saying later to each other…
I have moved on. Suck it up! Or if you don’t want to, it is not my problem…
Whatever!
The Workaholic… Problematic… and Selfish Brat in Me
I had thoughts on how hard my work is but it was taken out of my list of responsibilities, I suddenly felt like I was stripped off and ashamed that I was not able to do my work literally or religiously. Maybe I was just too attached with work, that I try to do everything that I can to make one big corporate goal to happen. Cheezy huh? Yeah, it is. Call it some names you want, I just want things to happen.
Maybe she’s right, I shouldn’t say anything especially when I know I deserve these things but then I try to set them aside to, again, help achieving corporate goal. In the end, I was the one burned out and ranting when in fact I agreed to it and voluntarily said yes to doing it. Sigh…. I must suck! Big this time.
There are things that are for you. It can also be, you can not simply do everything in this world life has offered you. You have to make that choice and in every choices, you lose something. Whether you made this choice or that, there is nothing wrong about it nor it was wrong to make that choice or choose the other.
I have been there. Done that several times. Rant more than ever. Cuss all I want. It doesn’t lead me anywhere though. I always end up still sitting and mumbling. I hate that. What can I do? I made that choice so I have to endure the pain that comes along with it.
My almost beautiful 2008 started with a heartache now ends with back pains. And I started 2009 with less sleep and more work. I should start seeing it that way. (Crosses fingers) I hope I will make the right decision this time.
Hopeless with getting Ssssleeeepp
Everyday, I felt a rush. Feels like a hand is pushing me, making me do something. I don’t deny that you need to work so you can have something to eat. I just felt it was way too much work for me. I seldom have time to visit Dad or my nieces. I no longer eat breakfast with my nephews.
I constantly have these daydreaming. I would be more happy if I were dreaming of someone but what runs through this head are plans, proposal, my work, my to-do list and any stuff that links to my work. I love working, but work is haunting me day and night.
I would sit on my computer chair late at night and think of what to do to be productive. I am getting money in but I am definitely not getting enough sleep for my body. In every endeavor I got myself into and in every projects that I accomplished gives me adrenalin to start another. And wasting time is not an option.
I like winning things, although 50% of the time I would like to lose. It makes me realize my sense of direction. That I am human and I learn a lot from losing than winning.
In a way I am glad that I have internet back home. I do lots of stuff with it. Somehow it has become part of me. It entertains me when I can not sleep. Or I can use the computer to watch DVDs.
I know I am slowly losing real-people sociability status. My friends don’t hang with me anymore. Even in their own faces I would be in front of a laptop doing something productive again. They do not want to hang with me because they think I am busy and they are interrupting.
I guess that’s me now.
I am not only fascinated with the movie, “Twilight”, but with the way it was written. I like listening the audiobook. Although, I am disappointed that not all events on the book was portrayed on the movie.
Think…Smoke
I am amazed by some people who somehow find solace in one stick of a cigarette. Almost everyone I know are into smoking because they feel stressed out and having a break for them is not coffee but a smoke outside the building.
I will not deny that I have tried smoking back in college. And because everyone else is doing it so I thought, why not. I never get to be an addict but everytime we have overtime for a report or a thesis or whatever that is needed to be done asap, I light a Marlboro while talking outside the room.
When I get to see old friends, I found out that they are still smoking and it never came to their minds to quit smoking. They say they have a hectic schedule. They feel like smoking is the only way to like de-stress them from very busy life. They say smoking is in their system, it is in their blood.
Thinking I have a busy schedule too and everyday is hectic for me, I am thinking of why not go out and smoke. Do you think it is a smart thing to do? I think not.
